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Ambivalence

Ambivalence

An Education

by Brian Dillon

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Ambivalence is the writer Brian Dillon’s coming-of-age memoir set in Ireland between 1987 and 1995. When Dillon was sixteen, his mother died, and he stopped caring about school. While he courted failure, his real education was going on elsewhere: with books, music, films and television. When against all odds he made it to college, his head was already full of avant-garde writing, art, and ideas. Could he live up to the hopes and dreams he attached to culture? Halfway through college his father died, and the stakes of Dillon’s education seemed even higher.

Ambivalence explores what learning meant to its author, what it enabled and denied, between the ages of seventeen and twenty-six, when he left his native Dublin. It’s at once a memoir of that city in the 1980s and 1990s, an uncynical portrait of the adolescent and early-adult mind, and an intimate defense of radical thinking about literature and life. In vivid present-tense fragments, Dillon describes his first encounters with writers such as Virginia Woolf, Walter Benjamin, Samuel Beckett, Roland Barthes and Jacques Derrida. He recalls being seduced by ambivalence, ambiguity and androgyny—on the page and in the life he hoped his reading would transfigure.

The era he describes seemed to demand new ways of thinking about aesthetics and politics. Today, when rights are fragile, arts and humanities attacked, and students dismissed as radicals or narcissists, Ambivalence is an argument for the poetic and revolutionary force of changing yourself and even the world by changing what you know.

Additional Book Information

Series: New York Review Books
ISBN: 9798896231103
Pages: 144
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Praise

Ambivalence tells the story of a mind making itself up, changing, deleting, willfully transforming itself. . . . This reader trusts people who doubt themselves and their ideas, and Ambivalence honors a productive and essential trust between writer and reader. This is an exceptional work.
—Lynne Tillman

This is a brilliant book, which I couldn’t put down. It tells the story of an education that reads like the evocation of an entirely dead world of philosophy, theory and letters in the late 1980s and ’90s. It works because of its steadfast refusal of sentimentality. Dillon writes about himself as if he were someone else, someone not in any way clearly visible. Just faint lines on a page. Yet somehow, in its impersonality and distancing, Dillon conjures an intimacy, a compelling and genuinely shaking pathos rather than sham authenticity. Dillon asks, “Does education still keep its promises?” On the evidence of the prose of this book, it does. And for us, as confusing as one’s intellectual formation always looks in retrospect, it must.
—Simon Critchley, author of Mysticism

Brian Dillon is one of the true treasures of contemporary literature—a critic and essayist of unmatched style, sensitivity and purpose.
—Mark O’Connell

Brian Dillon is always invigoratingly brilliant. His sentences, his stylistic innovations, the range and potency of his intellectual adventures; he is a true master of the literary arts and a writer I would never hesitate to read, whatever his subject.
—Max Porter

His project, it seems to me, is a nearly holy one, born of deep generosity and love for the world.
—Lauren Groff

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